After I went back to Cuba, actually since I decided to go to Cuba, my frozen heart got back to warm.
.Once I left Cuba,It had been difficult to say even good night, good morning or simple greeting to him. Because there's no Internet in cuba and one SMS is only 150 letters and it costs 100yen. I really wanted to tell simple greeting. I noticed they mean I love you.
I felt being able to say a little simple words to him directly and to touch him are too much happy to cry again.
Because I had thought we could never see again.
It's almost 3 weeks, but for me, as if it's just one night. It's too short.
The last night, we talked about that we don't have future. I became 29 years old and he has to go to university 5 years more in Cuba. Tourist visa is only for 1 month. The only way to contact each other is expensive SMS that limited for 150 letters.
He said he can't imagine same future to me. Actually it's true, but, but, we love each other. I don't know why we can't. I just wanted to be with him.
It doesn't matter the other things.
For example, I can get a student visa for 6 months, I can come to Cuba from Canada easily when I stay by Canadian working holiday visa, if he can connect Internet frequently, we can talk by skype or something.
I don't know marriage is important or not anymore.
I think most important thing is to love each other. Of course I want to marry with a man who loves me and I love.
But, but, but, ...he can't imagine and it's unable for him.
That's the answer. We broke up on my birthday.
This is the real final of everything.